so its been ages since i've been blogging i know
my baby macbook decided to succumb to the ebb and flow of the universe...
leaving me computerless, photos/documents/music-less, and having to resort to all computer/internet access through the public facilities of my school... making for any private web-surfing open to the world and thus embarassing when i am researching the calorie count of the whoppers malt ball candies or spending countless hours studying the different funky outfits on lookbook... let alone being on facebook.
anyway, it's been a few weeks of culminated stress... i think i miss europe way too much.
i think i just miss traveling. it's not so much about the destination, really. it's the thrill of getting on an airplane/train/car, knowing that you're moving across the world, enabling you to observe different parts of the planet. even if you are going to a place you've been to thousands of times, it's always a new adventure. nothing ever happens twice, it seems, and that's what makes it exciting. it makes me want to go and explore... that's what traveling is all about.
but now that i'm back and seemingly stuck (i know i shouldn't complain so much, i know others have it a lot worse than i, but it feels so suffocating studying and working from noon to six at night...) and having my entire day robbed... being in california makes anyone want to sit out in the sunshine as much as possible! especially after returning from a country such as England where sun is almost as scarce as a surfer!
with midterms, a lack of a computer, europe-sick-ness, the loss of everything in my computer... i can't help but feel a bit... un-me.
i've been attempting to find an artistic outlet as of late... but we shall see where that takes me.
i just have to maintain a sense of calm in such times...

breathe in, breathe out.